From Numb to Nourished: My Journey of Worth, Womanhood, and the Work I Was Born to Do
Written by: Guest Blogger, Nori Muro
For so long, I thought beauty was something I had to earn, that worth had to be proven, and that love was transactional and something I had to chase. I know what it’s like to feel like you don’t quite belong, to stand in a room and wonder if everyone can see right through you, to compare yourself to other women and feel like you come up short.
Growing up, I learned early that being different wasn’t always celebrated. I carried the sting of teasing, body shame, and comparison like heavy stones in my pockets. I wanted so badly to be chosen, to be seen, to feel like I was enough.
So, I got really good at hiding, at performing, at pretending, at molding myself into who I thought people wanted me to be. Fashion became my armor; shopping was my escape. If I could just wear the right thing, act a certain way, becoming a master shape shifter and chameleon, maybe they’d see me. Maybe I’d finally belong. But deep down, I wasn’t dressing to express myself—I was dressing to disappear into the version of me I thought the world would accept.
And there came a day, seven and a half years ago, when I just couldn’t do it anymore. I couldn’t keep numbing myself with alcohol, shopping, and pretending. I was exhausted from chasing approval and love and belonging from external sources and still never feeling at home in my own skin. That’s when I made the decision to stop running from myself, to get sober, to begin the slow, messy, beautiful process of coming home to who I really am.
It didn’t happen overnight. I had to unlearn so many lies I believed, that I wasn’t beautiful unless someone else said so, that my voice didn’t matter unless it was pleasing, that me thoughts and opinions didn’t count. That to belong, I had to shrink myself to fit.
And in that unlearning, something unexpected happened I started to feel free. I began to see beauty in myself that had nothing to do with size or style and everything to do with presence, truth, and kindness.
That’s also when my women’s circles were born. Not from a perfect plan, but from longing—my longing for a space where women could be real, be heard, and be celebrated for exactly who they are. Circles became a place where shame had no seat, where silence could be sacred, and where no one had to pretend to be fine.
Recently, I came across Rock Your Beauty’s purpose: To unleash confidence, amplify voices, and redefine beauty through the power of self-expression. To shatter the limitations that keep women small. To create bold spaces where we can be fully ourselves.
To give every woman the freedom to stand tall, own her presence, and step into her power.
It stopped me in my tracks, because it felt like someone had put my heart into words.
I know what it’s like to feel small. To question your worth. To try on different versions of yourself, hoping one will finally “fit.” I also know the joy of finally taking up space, not because someone gave you permission, but because you decided you deserve to be here exactly as you are.
Sian’s mission isn’t just about fashion, it’s about freedom. It’s about leading with style, owning the room, voicing your worth, and empowering others to rise with you.
I see you. I feel you. I am you. And if no one has told you lately— You are loved. You are worthy. Without the mask. Without the makeup. Come as you are. That’s where the magic begins!
Nori Muro
Founder; A Woman’s Connection
“We circle together in community, creating ripples of healing, love, and transformation.”